Anxious
Posted on September 6, 2007
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Life is so busy that I am not able to update my blog but even then whenever I feel something pinching in external or my internal world; I use to come back and write. Today my internal world has brought me to write, whatever I am writing. You might have read my progress in this blog. In December 2006, I shifted to Karachi for good and started preparing for CSS exam. Things went well and I happened to do away with it in first week of April, 2007. After that my second step was of pursuing my dream career, a career in Public Health and I stood successful to grab an opportunity and kicked it start.
Having that opportunity in my hand, my next step was seeking admission for my higher studies. For that matter, I had to give GRE, GRE went fine and my application process for scholarship was complete in due course. I started waiting for both CSS result and scholarship thing. Both the results are due in September, 2007 and September has started. I am a little bit anxious if I am able to make it or not. If not in CSS, its alright with me but the thing that I badly need is my admission for higher studies since its my dream and I have to make it any how. Now the situation is in a way that I want to go ahead by Fall 2008 but if its not going to happen, I will have to strive one more year and go through the same process once again and will stay a year late that I don’t want to. It just happened last night that I have started thinking and preparing myself for the worst that can happen to me and the worst is what I just talked, getting a year late.
Lets see what my fate has to offer me and do pray for me!!!!!
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Having that opportunity in my hand, my next step was seeking admission for my higher studies. For that matter, I had to give GRE, GRE went fine and my application process for scholarship was complete in due course. I started waiting for both CSS result and scholarship thing. Both the results are due in September, 2007 and September has started. I am a little bit anxious if I am able to make it or not. If not in CSS, its alright with me but the thing that I badly need is my admission for higher studies since its my dream and I have to make it any how. Now the situation is in a way that I want to go ahead by Fall 2008 but if its not going to happen, I will have to strive one more year and go through the same process once again and will stay a year late that I don’t want to. It just happened last night that I have started thinking and preparing myself for the worst that can happen to me and the worst is what I just talked, getting a year late.
Lets see what my fate has to offer me and do pray for me!!!!!
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Farrukh,
i am not an expert but i gathered from your post that so far whatever you want to achieve, you have achieved. Now its your internal fear that force you to consider all if, thens, all H and W’s. I think just be cool, do your best and leave the rest to GOD. Enjoy life dear, enjoy every second of it, who know that this kind of life will be availble afterwards. The problem with us that we live either in future or in the past, we dont live present. Live present dear and have fun
ciao
@Aamanna: Thanks for the advice buddy!
which scholarship have you applied for? fullbright? well best of luck!
hope you get it!
@Malaika: How you guessed that I am following Fullbright? Are you one on those who are in run???? Thanks for wishing me luck….
if inshallah you pass your css thingi …you wouldnt need the scholarship..my cousin ..infact her whole family has done css..as soon as she cleared her papers …the government sent her to uk..and now shes back and is a government officer..and is earning a hell lot of money…
@Hira: You sound like ma dad who wants me to do it besides by doing CSS I will stay a B.A. sort of creature who has money money money only. I want to fly higher and top the world with my creative being by becoming a researcher. Well I might sound stupid but that what I thing. Moreover last time I was few yardsaway from that CSS thingi….
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